Misconceptions

"Akala ko mahal ko siya, akala ko mahal niya ko at baka din akala niya mahal niya ko."

If someone will ask me again what we really are I am already prepared, prepared to lie that nothing was ever really there. It was nothing but a mere mistake of Fate. The feelings that surfaced were only a product of our extreme need for comfort and self gratification. It was our last resort in finding continuity for our damned lives. We were convinced and manipulated by the situation and now that its finally over we were awakened that it's nothing more than a dream.

"Kung ikukumpara mo ko sa kotse, shock absorber niya lang ako. Hindi ako ang gulong na nagpapaikot sa buhay niya."

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*Fighting for that final shred of hope that maybe you really love (or loved) me.

Sam Soon's lessons to live by (and die martyr)

"Dance like nobody's watching; love like you've never been hurt. Sing like nobody's listening; live like it's heaven on earth."
-- Mark Twain

In -between- computer games and pseudo-reflection

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How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

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Feeling makatha day

Here are some nice poems i found in the web (all are from http://www.sushidog.com/bpss/main.htm)



FIVE MATH POEMS
by Eileen Tupaz

soulmates

we are all of us
nonsingular creatures
whose identities
must be affirmed
before our inverses
can be found

conformity

why must life
be a diagonal matrix?
where every other path
that deviates from the main
is an unacceptable
- zero

SOLEDAD

by Angela Manalang Gloria

It was a sacrilege, the neighbors cried,
The way she shattered every mullioned pane
To let a firebrand in. They tried in vain
To understand how one so carved from pride
And glassed in dream could have so flung aside
Her graven days, or why she dared profane
The bread and wine of life for some insane
Moment with him. The scandal never died.

But no one guessed that loveliness would claim
Her soul's cathedral burned by his desires
Or that he left her aureoled in flame…
And seeing nothing but her blackened spires,
The town condemned this girl who loved too well
and found her heaven in the depths of hell.

THEY SAY FILIPINA IS ANOTHER NAME
FOR MAID
by Luisa A. Igloria

Our Overseas Contract Workers are the new heroes
of the Philippines --Fidel V. Ramos

Even on their day off, the army
ponders the different ways
to share strength in the many
lands of the enemy, abroad
where they are known
by only one
name.

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i only got portions of the poems except for soledad

Still

ito po from peyups.com by caravaggio

I guess all I’m trying to say is that there may be that one person in our lives whom we can’t forget, although we stopped loving them and wanting to be with them and stuff, a long time ago. We can’t forget them, maybe because they were our first in a lot of things. Something we remember occasionally, not solely because of the other person, but because of who we were at the time. The other person doesn’t even play a big part in the production anymore, he or she is just a character, a supporting role. The main attraction is how it made us feel, the relationship, the emotions involved.

How can I ever forget you?